every day I see my dream

Words really cannot describe how much music inspires me. It's like every new song I hear and love, a new idea forms in my mind about Lord knows what. Every day I wake up and try to put my "happy face" on, although some days it seems near impossible. I think about how I can make my dreams come true, about how my story will come to life. It used to be a lot harder, I almost had to accept the fact that there were just some things in life I couldn't do. Then I gained self-confidence, especially after Highschool, and realized sky really is the limit. I would absolutely LOVE to be someones mentor eventually, so that I may help and give wise advice to people who just don't get it, like the way I used to be. There is so much more to life than a party or a relationship that will only last for three weeks. If a thirteen-year-old Highschool freshman lost in the world can magically transform into a nineteen-year-old woman aspiring to be the next Navy recruit, well then I would have to say there is really hope for anyone else that is so called, "lost in the world". I never thought I could be capable of being a leader, or actually be committed to something. Well, this is the story of how I decided I wanted to be a part of the Navy. My interest comes from the desire to have drive, to find discipline, to gain independence and yes, to be financially stable after my years of service. For me, this is MY new dream. This Wednesday night, actually, at six p.m. I take the official test to join, the A.S.V.A.B. Now this isn't to see how brilliant or completely brain dead you are, it's more of an aptitude test, to see what jobs best qualifiy and match up to your abilities. However, after this test I need to travel to Salt Lake City, UT, to take the final physical. After I pass both tests, I will then sign my name to actually be a part of the U.S. Navy. Never in my life have I ever felt this way with flooded mixed emotions of joy, anxiousness, nervousness, but most of all I am just ecstatic to be doing something huge with my life. God gave me life and breath every day for a specific reason, I happen to know, and now is definitely the time to explore what my true purpose is in life. I want so badly to be successful, with much education under my belt, and to not only make my family proud, but to make myself proud. To prove to myself that I can do this, no matter how tough it's going to be. Throughout any hardship, struggle, or temptation, I know I can and WILL get through this journey, this chapter of my life. Anyways, to any of you who have ambitions or high dreams, please do NOT give up on yourself! You can do anything you set your heart and mind to, always remember that.         

words escaping my mind and for the world to see

I can picture a place where people can create anything they desire. More complex than light, the wheel, or even automobiles. Almost like Pandora, but not quite. There will be both strengths and weaknesses, only because weakness helps and encourages and builds one up. It is way more rewarding to fail at something than to never try it at all, and that is what the moto of my story will be. It will also be where anyone can be who they want to be, no matter how unrealistic it is. That's the beauty of a "story". Lately I want to learn art and music, and become brilliant in the works of both. How to draw lines in perfect form, how to play guitar and piano and violin with absolutely no flaws. In the world of Awe, anything can happen. You can be self taught through any experience. Like i said, however, failure will always be there. Much of what I put down is chaotic, it's like words can hardly be explained except in weird and "hard-to-read" sentences, but try to keep up, I'll try. One thing to know is that I will be writing every idea I have, which is a HUGE part of who I am, and I would really appreciate any feedback! So, as my first blog, to whoever is reading this, feel free to contact me and let me know your input!